"a clean night"

Sudden bouts of serenity flood my veins,
filling my clouded mind with a silence,
and everything goes cold,
my body left numb.
This latest absence somehow satisfying;
the sweet taste of an abandoned recurrence.
Dry eyes making greater the distance
between self and pain
between now and then;
eyes that cast every point and blade
at the sins that cry out,
no mercy,
just a crutch within a nailed coffin.